Unanswered prayers

Can't focus. Perhaps it has something to do with all of the work that I need to get done in the next few weeks, but perhaps it has to do with a late night phone call Saturday night. I was bothered by it all day yesterday and last night until I figured out the reason for it. Full moon. Yup, continuing support for my theory that men "cycle" with the moon. Women have 7 days that we are "off" according to many sources. I have found that three days before and three days after a full moon, men are off. Moon cycles are 28 days, our cycles are 28 days. Things that you usually do seem to set them off and sometimes, they simply blindside you.

This brings me to my title. Unanswered prayers. When I was in high school, I always wondered if I would ever be in the position of all of those people that wrote broken hearted songs. The ones where the girl becomes the one that got away. I always wondered if some guy would ever feel that way about me, or perhaps would just think of me whenever the song comes on the radio. Well, too bad for me, I am. I got a phone call from X (the ex). Oh man. Haven't spoken in a few weeks since I told him to either make me a true ex-girlfriend and quite talking to me or treat me like a friend. (He seems to think that I am always available, gets upset when I don't answer the phone, make jealous declarations when I hang with other guys....blah, blah, blah.) So he leaves a message last week. He broke up with his girlfriend. I don't call back. He calls two more times. I don't return them. So what does X do? Ambush.

At 2:30 am, I get a phone call. I just answer at that hour. It MUST be important for anyone to be calling. As I put the phone to my ear, the name on the caller ID registers. It's X. NO!!! Dangit! Too late, you answered, now you have to talk to him. After he goes on for about 5 minutes, I start to feel ill. Physically ill. That's what happens when I wake up unexpectantly from mid REM sleep. End of call, he wants to talk tomorrow. So, I call on Sunday (Hey, it prevents the ambush/guilt trip.)

I get to hear how he is better off without her, how they broke up, how she is now involved with some 45 year old lecher. Then, he drops it. The bombshell that I though would never, ever come. He wants to move. No, not to Florida, but if I were still in NE, perhaps he would move close to me and we could try it again. What!?!? Was he not present in our relationship? Seriously! X thinks that the main problem was distance. What about the arguments? The drinking issue? The fact that he has no direction in his life? Not to mention the fact that he enjoys shocking people with offensive humor and I want to be liked by EVERYONE.

I couldn't even say anything. I did argue that him visiting would not be a good idea. Not next week, not next month, not next January that he is looking into ticket prices for. Sheesh. What is up with this? I was confused. Called the captain (I am trying to avoid names as I get a growing audience), but no answer. So I call Hass, a guy from work. Too bad for me, he is in a mushy state. Oozing sympathy and talking about how it really is hard to get over your ex. Uhhhh....forgot that he has a few lingering issues. Not my best choice for feedback.

So, do I call him out? Maybe after the full moon phase it will all go away. He will feel silly and I don't have to bring it up. Yeah, see if it goes away. I like this plan. Well, I'm leaving the apartment cuz the internet is to tempting today. Things keep running through my mind, so I am heading to a coffee shop, or something. Machiatto to the rescue.

I hope that the next song I can relate to is something frivolous like Dancing Queen.

Update: Right after I posted this, X called. I debated answering, but decided to face it upfront. Yeah, I know. Just can't leave it alone. Anyway, after listening to his new "dot com" idea for about 20 minutes, I decided to call it short with a "we need to talk, but later". He is calling and I hope to set a few things straight. Perhaps refresh his memory to how our relationship really went?!?