Keep on keeping on

With the loss of Jacque I am having a hard time making myself blog. I realized how much I anticipated her reading about my drama and travels. At least I have mom checking in 3 times a day. Staving off phone calls when she hasn't heard from me for three days ought to keep my typing! LOL

Jacque's funeral was yesterday. They played "On eagle's wings" and "I could only imagine", two songs that never fail to squeeze my heart. I got pretty overwhelmed listening to the music and the details about her life, but then one of her favorite musicians played. His name is Chad Stoner and he plays jazz saxaphone. He played a song called "a house is not a home" and it just brought an overwhelming sense of peace to me. I could just picture Jacque smiling and grooving to the music and knew that everything was going to be okay. I posted about how much she meant to me the morning that she passed on and am just sure that somehow she got the message.

I am still struggling to find balance as I get my PhD application ready. Next week I will take the GRE again (after some mad studying) and hope to get set up. I fly out again tomorrow and have lots of work to catch up on. I took extra profiles to work on during my flight home that were due today. However, my ambition was not met by my motivation, so once again....I am behind. Back to real life, I guess.

P.S. Listent to chad's music here: http://www.jimmertz.com/listen.htm
I was having a hard time getting it to load, but I hope you can enjoy it at home....